a few days ago i went for a small music concert...
they did all kinds of music, the singers were very obviously enjoying themselves. the beat was fun, and i strangely could not keep the tears out of my eyes. Instead of simpy enjoying a good concert, i felt left out. Something i had not let myself think about for so long, just lunged at me from the stage...
where has all the music in my life gone? if i dared to be honest, wouldn't i still love to sing... wouldn't i love to part of this group that was creating all of that...
ever since i lost my voice i just locked the whole world of music and stayed away from it... but what should i do? i miss it so much..
and since i have opened this crazy pandora's box.... out come the same old questions...there are so many things i want to do, so many things that i could become briliant at, if i gave it its due time... but why do i just never stick to ANY one of my fancies for long enough? its almost as if while i begin to become good at one thing, a crazy fear siezes me that i'm loosing out on everything else... i move on, and pick something else... and the cycle repeats...
is this the way it is always going to be?
1 comment:
Did you really lose your voice? Can't utter sound...or has it just changed? Needs to be rediscovered? Singing and playing music is my life...I am never as engaged in life as when I am singing...so I hope you find your voice.
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