On Lingering

So while i begin most posts after a long time on a declaration of ending a 'chapter', this won't be one of them. This chapter doesn't seem to want to get over so easy.  I feel like the author of a book in which the characters have become so strong that i can't keep to the story i had planned... the fictional characters themselves are suddenly planning the trajectory of the plot... and that i myself will be surprised when i write that last chapter.

So right now is about lingering. Its about a lot of looking back, a lot if reflecting.  I'm in a place i didn't expect to be in after my 'time was done'. I also  such a have foggy picture of whats ahead that the only way to navigate is by looking behind me.  The good thing is that there IS so much behind, so much that i can pick up the loose ends of and start a whole new tapestry.  

The last few months were fun. And here i mean fun in the best meaning of the word.  It was SO much play with thoughts and fights with time.  Mock fights - the fun kind.  So i DID manage to take my work on understanding humor to a new level.  something so far from my comfort zone.  I read my paper again today after 2 weeks of not thinking about it, and was thrilled to see that it still seemed to have the possibility of a touch of magic... and strangely and most importantly it was so not complete. So much still to come. Just like the format of humor.  Humor is fun cause its format is in its incompleteness. Ones mind has to work to complete the riddle.  Different minds tie the ends in different ways, some don't and don't laugh... but the important piece is that interestingly jokes like abstract art hold no meaning if you don't make sense of it in your own context.

Here's to the next few months being the 'set up' for something that will truly make me smile at the point of resolution. 

Like humor.